Week 22 Recap: …And Two Steps Back

Week 22 started out with a scare. I was getting ready for the day, doing my Facemaster (which I have used for about 6 years now), when I suddenly started having multiple palpitations (a rather large flip-flop) to the point where my heart began to pound rapidly. It was rather frightening because for about 5-10 seconds my heart just could not get back on track. My pulse jumped to about 110. I didn't know what to make of it. I wasn't stressed, wasn't thinking about anything in particular, just watching TV while doing my face. I was completely relaxed, although after that little incident I have to admit I was pretty frightened.

I couldn’t remember the last time I felt like that. In the past I had experienced a sudden rapid and pounding heart beat, and had experienced the multiple palpitation/flip-flop feeling but couldn't remember when/if I had ever felt the two of them together. It was quite disconcerting because I thought I was over all of that!

After the ‘incident’ my left chest was aching, as well as my left arm. I was thinking it may be an anxiety reaction. I wasn’t under stress, but felt frustrated because I had been doing so much better, and now this – totally out of the blue, for no apparent reason. I couldn’t shake the anxiety and so ended up taking 1 mg lorazepam, which made me groggy for the rest of the day. Though I felt physically fine, I was emotionally let down. It depressed me because I felt like I went through an event that had no reason for happening. If I knew the cause, I could dismiss it and move on. Perhaps last week’s stomach upsets and chest fluttering led to this latest development?

I determined to ignore it the best I could. Just -- it is what it is-- it happened, I don't know what it is, get on with life.

After about two weeks of quitting Prilosec my stomach finally began to settle down, though I continued to experience the internal trembling that no doctors have been able to address so far. When it happens during the day it is like a major caffeine buzz, but at night it seems more pronounced and can be felt through the skin. I began to wonder if all this internal trembling is related to something with my nervous system that may also occasionally interfere with the electrical conduction of my heart.

I had a checkup with the internist this week and talked to him about the sudden flip-flop I had experienced out of the blue. He said if I had a mitral valve prolapse (MVP) it would have been spotted on the echocardiogram we did back in January, and that he didn’t think I had dysautonomia, but he wanted to recheck all of my thyroid levels—particularly because he noticed that my weight had gone up and then back down quite rapidly (in a few months time). He also mentioned that he was going to be talking with someone else about my case to help get some answers, which is always nice to know.

I asked him when I might see an improvement in the osteopenia and he said it could take up to 2 years to see a difference in bone density. It was a good visit – my blood pressure was 102/74 and my pulse was 84 – a little elevated for me but probably because I was nervous. I had about 5 tubes of blood drawn for the thyroid and iron blood tests.

The internal trembling continued throughout the week and at night it even felt like my eyelids were trembling. Another strange and new symptom began appearing this week: dizziness especially upon awakening and upon sitting up. In the meantime, I continued to take the clobetasol proprionate ointment as prescribed for the rashes on my arms.

By mid-week it was clear that this was

going to continue to be a very strange week!

I began to have stress days. For some weird reason I just couldn’t seem to control my levels of stress. My brain was telling me something was wrong or going go happen even though there was no physical indication or rationale for such an event. I felt like the Star Trek character Data when his emotion chip is implanted and it goes awry. Once it is deactivated he normalizes. It felt as though my stress ‘chip’ had gone awry and I didn’t know what to make of it. I had never felt that way before. I took a lorazepam and went to bed.

As I have learned since becoming seriously ill last October —if there is ever any type of new symptom I need to first look at what I’ve been doing differently or what drug was recently prescribed for me. In this case, the only thing new was the clobetasol proprionate ointment. I did a little Googling and found that it has been well established that low doses of topical clobetasol proprionate can cause adrenal suppression in some people. The adrenals are responsible for our ability to deal with stress! I immediately made the mental connection, though I was completely caught off-guard —it had never occurred to me that a topical ointment could produce this kind of reaction in me —but then again, over the past seven months my body had been reacting to everything!

One particular article I found came from the Journal of the Royal Society of Medicine entitled “Adrenal Suppression Following Low-dose Topical Clobetasol Proprionate” which said specifically:

“The use of topical steroids is associated with adverse systemic effects such as suppression of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis, and application of more than 50 g per week of clobetasol propionate cream has been shown to cause secondary adrenal failure” (Volume 80, July 1987).

The article described “4 patients who used clobetasol propionate cream over a prolonged period; 3 patients used less than 50 g per week (7.5, 25 and 30 g per week) and yet all developed secondary adrenal failure for up to 4 months after cessation of therapy” (Boldface added).

The conclusion was that “relatively small doses of clobetasol propionate cream may cause adverse systemic effects, with suppression of the HPA axis occurring more commonly than has previously been recognized.”

So what is the HPA axis and what happens when it is suppressed?

 According to Oregon State University’s Student Health Services:

 “The HPA axis can be thought of as the body's ‘stress sytem’. It controls the levels of cortisol (the ‘stress hormone’) and other important stress-related hormones. The HPA axis can also be thought of as the body's energy regulator, because it is also responsible for controlling virtually all of the hormones, nervous system activity and energy expenditure in the human body, as well as modulating the immune system. When the HPA axis becomes suppressed, your body will not be able to properly regulate your stress and energy levels, which can manifest in fatigue, suppressed immune system, depression, and anxiety. If you are experiencing such symptoms, you should see your health care provider for recommendations on the appropriate course of action.”

My first thoughts were: Could this really be the case? Just applying a small amount as prescribed? But I already knew my answer. My second thoughts were:  That's all I need to know.  My adrenals were already fatigued by my own diagnosis.  Stop taking it. Immediately.

The very next day, I woke up dizzy again. So much so, that as I sat up and leaned back to get a Kleenex off my nightstand, the room began spinning violently. I waited for it to subside and slowly stood up to use the bathroom but found myself leaning and kept tripping. As I went to get breakfast, I continued to feel very light-headed and off balance. I knew it was vertigo, and made an appointment to see my internist. He was out of town and so I was seen by a Nurse Practitioner, who subsequently diagnosed me with benign paroxysmal positional vertigo (BPPV) and recommended canalith repositioning exercises with a physical therapist (at this point, dollar signs began spinning around the room with everything else. I decided to wait until my internist got back into town and ask his advice.)

In the meantime, the NP prescribed meclizine (for the nausea that accompanied the dizziness) and a nasal spray: fluticasone proprionate. Great… more drugs…. I took the nasal spray and the meclizine the first day, but nothing more after that.

ODD THINGS DURING THE WEEK:

• Experienced some minor tightness/twinges of pain in upper left side of chest off and on early in the week.
• Experienced some mild left-subclavian pain again off and on
• Vertigo throughout the latter half of the week
• More pronounced internal trembling particularly in chest area

My exercise routines were disrupted this week with the vertigo. When I did use the treadmill my carotid pulse was much higher than normal-- for which there seemed to be no cause. For example, at 10 minutes into the walk my pulse is usually around 138. This week it was closer to 174—and hence the decision to not push anything.

When thinking back and wondering why I felt like I had been slipping backwards that week, I thought about my first heart events (for lack of a better work) last October. It seemed like they really slammed me down hard. A lot of things were going wrong before I was finally able to climb back up. And that is how I felt at this point. The strong cardiac flip-flop last Sunday followed by weird new symptoms: vertigo/dizziness and more weight loss without trying and without exercising most of the week. It was all so weird. Whether anything was connected to the other I had no way of knowing—especially after feeling so much better for a couple of months. It truly did feel like two steps backward.

Week 10 Recap: Gluten Reactions?

People have warned me about reactions to gluten once you have been g-free for any length of time. I have been told that each accidental exposure seems to result in a different or worse reaction than before. If what I experienced last week was a result of an accidental exposure, I think I ran the gamut of every sick feeling I’ve ever had -- and all in less than five days.

The week started out great, well into the 90th-percentile for me. I continued my “physical therapy” with two 30-minute treadmill walks, upped my Pilates time to 30 minutes, and upped my weight-bearing exercises to 15 minutes. My plan was to do continue with a six-day exercise program.

I also decided that I didn’t want to continue using clonazepam to help me sleep anymore. I have never liked the idea of taking drugs that do anything to my brain, and I don't like the idea of having to be “weaned” off of medications, especially ones that might require additional medications to counter the side effects of weaning. Well, the idea was a good one but I ended up taking lorazepam instead (Ativan). It was a tiny dose and I figured it would be a good way to slow down. It worked— I slept through the entire night for the first time I can remember in a long time!

But by Tuesday I started having a lot of what I call “subclavian” pain (just because it is in the general area of the subclavian vein --below my shoulder). It was so pronounced I gave it a 5.5 on the pain scale: moderate pain. It was not the first time I have experienced pain or congestion in that same area, but it seemed pretty strong this time and the pain radiated from the left subclavian area toward my left armpit as well. It lasted off and on all day and I ended up taking lorazepam to help me sleep again.

By Wednesday, I wasn’t feeling very good. I was feeling flu-like and couldn’t seem to keep my heart rate down during my treadmill walks. At the same time I developed a migraine headache on the right side of my head that steadily worsened throughout the day. By bedtime I was feeling weak and shaky and my insides were “trembling” again. I was so uncomfortable I resorted to lorazepam again to help me sleep because it had worked so well the previous two nights. It didn’t occur to me that the lorazepam might contain gluten.

The next day I continued to have trouble keeping my heart rate down during my treadmill walk and ended up reducing the speed and held on to the rails when I felt too winded. I also continued to battle the right-sided migraine as well as left chest pain that radiated upward into that left shoulder/subclavian area. The only good news was that my headache went away when I did my treadmill walks and suspected it was due to the increase in oxygen in my body. I determined not to take any more medications to help me sleep, and took Advil to dull the headache, instead.

As you can imagine, I didn’t sleep that night, and had to put up with internal muscle trembling which seemed to start in my esophagus at bedtime and worked its way all the way through to my intestines by morning. At least the headache went away! That Friday was the day I noticed the involuntary gasps which have happened several times over the past week or two, sometimes during the day, mostly at night, and for no apparent reason. The kind of involuntary gasps you experience while crying. Sometimes just a single one, sometimes 2 or 3 in quick succession; sometimes in the day time, but mostly at night. Chalked it up to just another one of those things, but wondered if it wasn’t somehow connected to everything else I was experiencing that week!!

Throughout most of Friday I was feeling very weak. Once again, I had a hard time keeping my heart rate down during the treadmill walk, sometimes exceeding 95% of my heart rate by several beats. I didn’t feel hungry, but forced myself to eat and ended up with a bad case of reflux all afternoon in spite of the twice daily omeprazole (Prilosec). It felt like the reflux was pressing against my lungs and chest, making my chest feet very full.

To ease the reflux and the bloating I was feeling, I took Mylanta twice that evening, but it didn’t do much good. I hardly slept again that night, and I felt intestinal trembling all night long, clear into dawn again—it was like I had a motor running that I couldn’t turn off.  (If you ever want to know how this trembling feels, stand in the shower and let the spray beat down on your chest.  That is how it feels, but from the inside.)

I spent most of Saturday morning feeling “weird and weak” like I either had low blood-sugar or low blood-pressure. My stomach felt hungry, but my brain didn’t. I weighed myself for the first time in I-don’t-know-how-many months (my only weight came from doctors' offices) and was at 108 lbs. That is probably the lowest I have been in 5 years, since the DH (dermatitis herpetiformis) first showed up. Though 108 is actually a good weight for me (between 105 and 110 is generally when I feel my best-- I am a small person), I am not trying to lose weight. If I was trying to lose weight and felt good, I wouldn’t care, but I don’t feel good, so I’m not sure that it’s such a good thing.

It took another night before all these weird symptoms even began to subside. I decided to skip the sixth day with Pilates and weight training and even came close to giving up the treadmill for that day, but somehow I managed to get it done, and that made me happy. My exercise totals for the week: 18.85 miles on the treadmill, 130 minutes with Pilates and 60 minutes in weight-training.

Overall, it was a rough week and I don’t want a repeat of this week any time soon— in fact, never again would be nice.

I believe I was having a reaction to gluten, though I do not know the source for sure. I know that I am very strict with my diet, and so I suspect it may be the lorazepam which was prescribed for me during one ER visit to help me get over the “hurdles.” Regardless, I won’t be taking it again!